Saturday, July 24, 2010

The Long Goodbye

A year ago, today, my beloved was dying.  Day-by-heartbreaking-day, I witnessed Suzy growing thinner and less capable of walking.  I wrapped a saddle sling around her loins and lifted her in-and-out of the house, at least three times a day, to go potty, get some fresh air, relieve the stagnant breath of stale air that encircled us like a halo of death.

An excruciating time.  I clung to her for dear life, praying, against all odds, that she would bounce back.  From what?  Old age and death?  No one has, and no one ever will.  Still, I prayed.  And hoped.  And cried. And bargained with God that I'd do anything if He'd let my darling live.  I needed her so much!  I couldn't bear to let her go!

Our last month together.  She looked so beautiful right up until the very end.  A stunning dog, a stellar friend, loyal and loving 'til the end.

And beyond. . . .

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