Feelin' Blue

There's an old Swedish proverb that goes like this:

"A grief shared is half a grief."

I like that, as I have no one to share my deep feelings, about Suzy with, except all of you.  Whoever you are, wherever you are.  It's comforting just imagining someone "out there" and nodding or tearing up or looking forward to the next installment.  So I thank you for your interest.

Today was hard.  I woke up and decided to make a Smilebox musical medley of the last 3 weeks with Suzy.  It's done, and I'll soon include the link in my blog so you can all see it, but it was really hard.  I cried through most of it and cry every time I watch it, which is often, as it's great to see Suzy.  Over and over, again.  I miss her sweet smile and soft fur more than words can say.


Then I went to an afternoon party but wasn't really in a party mood.  Sat outside on a deck and schmoozed with a bunch of strangers.  All the while thinking about Suzy.  She's constantly on my mind and in my thoughts.  I see her face wherever I go.  And I enjoyed making the Smilebox show, because she is in so many of the frames. 


Came back home after the party but wasn't in the mood for dinner so skipped it and went upstairs to work on my blog some more.  Sharing my grief is good and writing about it, even more helpful.  But all the talking and all the writing won't erase the hole I feel inside.  Some days are better than others, and today has been one of the harder ones.


Maybe tomorrow will be better.