Monday Musings

Still down with a cold.  Went to the Dr. last Friday and am on a few "herbal, homeopathic" remedies, but still feeling tired and have an ear ache.  Worried I might have fluid in the ear and how will it get out?  Don't want a big needle going down into my ear that' for sure.  So may need to see an ear, nose and throat specialist to see what other options I have.  But left side throat and ear hurts.  Hard to tolerate pain all alone.

Last week was a bust.  After hearing about Elly and Gambler (Rick Fallon's trust team of horses) going down in the pond, I could think of little else and kept visualizing these two mammoth steeds struggling for their lives in murky water with a carriage strapped to their backs.  And I just couldn't bear it but my mind kept reliving it over and over, again.  Why?  What is going on?  I mean subconsciously with me?  I wonder about thoughts like that and why I ruminate over and over, again.  Must be some inner fear or anxiety getting ahold of my psyche and not letting go.  I hope this week is calmer.

Part of the reason I think I have such fears is because I have no one to talk to on a daily basis.  Hard to take, live with, be alone so much.  Pets help to be sure, but we all need human contact from someone who loves us, too.  Last weekend I started planting all my annuals.  FLowers help to brighten out world and our spirits.  My darling Violettas, bright Petunias and Indigo Blue and White miniature Pansies lifted mine but took a lot of work to plant.  I felt exhausted and have 3 more flats to go!

But they were company for a sunny Sunday and provided light and lively companionship in the garden.  Today I'll finish up planting and shall then have all summer to spend with my spritley companions.  Sweetie Sue and the kits ever nearby, ever happy, contented and fine.